then tomorrow i'll prove myself a teenager by sleeping the day away. sounds great.
i'm not asking anyone to join me or anything [unless you want to? go ahead man.] i'm just letting you know.
(:


021.1. when i first met you you were like an unopened mystery present to me i knew nothing about what was inside you & i was fully prepared to rip you open & see your insides & the thought of this made my blood cells feel like they were electrified [ how electrified? i could have lit up half of china or california or, selfishly, the half of my heart that quit on me years ago due to severe heart break.] after two years, you're still a mystery to me & i have yet to tear you open. &nbs021.


020.you used to lie on my bed with me when i wrote on whatever was lying around shoes or skin or broken heart strings not yet repaired & you'd watch me. you'd watch how i formed my m's like half hearts & the way i held my pencil lovingly020.
[ yet not as lovingly as you. do i mean not as lovingly as i held you or not as lovingly as you held me
or does it really matter? ]
& the way i closed my eyes at the end of each sentence.
& then we'd kiss or go outside in the freezing cold or drink hot chocolate or look out of the window into the night sky or just lay down on my bed side by side, ha


019.dear you,019.
i have 111 messages in my e-mail spam folder & 1 message from you in my phone from months ago. i think my phone is going to give me love advice before i forget what you said in the message. i also think my phone will delete your message soon & i wont be allowed to forget what you said in the message because if i forget i'll have nothing left of you but the memories i wont list.
your sister told me hou


018. i like how we have unimportant things in common such as not possessing the ability to keep acrylic paint from playing hide & go seek under our fingernails or how we could both live off of the love of another human being & cereal but only the colorful kind that kids way younger than us find joy in eating or how striped shirts make us look like lumpy zebras but that never stops us from wearing them as often as we want018.
or just. things like that. but i also like tons of other things besides you & not having anything to do with you such as receiving mail & the sme


Reese's Peanut Butter Cups... I remember once we were in your room eating Reese's peanut butter cups. You prefered the mini ones, so you of course had a big pile of them. I like the big ones, so just like you I had a big pile of them. Otep's House of Secrets cd adorned your stereos speakers. We were only fourteen and didn't give too much care if it was too high, or if we had nothing put sugar surging through our veins.Reese's Peanut Butter Cups
As I poked out the middles of my Reese's and ate the peanut butter I noticed that you had a strange way of eating yours. You ate them like they were Oreo's. Peeling them open from


I can'tI can't say i wanted it this way It just happened you with your eyes me with my smile a lost girl floating on air you held out your hand and i took it carefreeI can't
and happy you smiled
i laughed but then it was over no more smiles no more laughter just hurt hurt and confusion why i wanted to know
why did you do this i hear nothing no voice just tears as i cry you did this
you did this i scream


Replace myselfI want to open up this notebook and turn myself into something else.Replace myself
I want to write about how colourful the leaves
have become and about
how magically that sunset
blossomed yesterday evening.
I want to say that I'm happy and write poems about how great it feels to be
in love.
I want to scream out that I'm at least content with the way Im living my life. That I wouldn't
change for anyone or anything.
I want to write myself lies. I want to believe them.

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